Are you being manipulated?

In my late 30s I became aware I was unhappy. I wasn’t totally sure why, I had a great partner and kids that I loved, a successful career, wonderful friends, but still I felt empty in places, dissatisfied. Like many, I began looking outside myself. Maybe we should move, build a new house. Maybe I needed a new career? Maybe I needed to go on a trip, a bigger one. This is what started my spiritual journey of looking for my truth. I would investigate different theologies and religions but found myself to be more solitary and realized that for me my spirituality was very intimate. I dabbled, but for the most part, I put it aside.

At around 40 I would dive into the world of personal development. And as much as this brought me to work on myself, I still looked outside for change. I was completely caught in the tug-of-war of searching for pleasure, joy, fulfillment while trying to get away from anxiety, fear, and anger.

Whole-hearted people

When I read a book by Brene Brown, she mentioned whole-hearted people. These are people that live their life with their hearts and minds wide open. They don’t play small in fear of being hurt. I was in awe. I wanted to be that kind of person.

Arent you tired of being a plaything of the forces of life, of being pushed by pleasure here and pulled around by pain there? Tired of being dependent on the praise of others and afraid of their censure? 

Yes. 

This is where building a high Will Quotient comes in. Every time we are pushed or pulled by our thoughts, emotions, body, senses, or ego; we are being manipulated. Who is in charge? 

This is why I meditate. When I go in, I can see a little clearer. I am more aware of what is going on around me. It strengthens me to be more forgiving, compassionate, and alive. 

My wish today is to be my own Sovereign Queen. To rule over the forces rather than be ruled by them.

Are you tired of being manipulated yet?

Brightest of blessings,

Dawn xo

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